NOTICE: This post will examine controversial topics including marriage equality, church dissent, and abortion. The opinions herein are strictly my own, including explanations about how I arrived at these conclusions. I am not telling others how or what to believe, I'm just explaining what I believe and why.
Wow. I haven't posted anything since October, and that was in defense of "the essential profession", that being education. I'm going to let this post finally declare some things I hadn't openly declared the way I typically declare stuff...like on facebook.
The main thoughts I've had recently have made me a draw some conclusions that I feel best suit my life.
RELIGION
I was born and raised Catholic. I'm 31 and for the vast majority of my life, I've been a devoted Catholic, following all church and faith teachings. However, once New York passed marriage equality back in 2011, I started witnessing church leaders doing horrid things against God's gay children. I realized I could no longer spiritually invest myself in a church that didn't love me the way I know God does.
So I stopped attending church. I've become fed up with listening to men on pulpits judging others' lives when they serve an institution infamous for sexually abusing children. Now, are all priests and bishops bad people? Of course not. But that doesn't change the fact that there are many priests who abused kids, and whose bishops helped them avoid accountability. Having done that, they have NO room to judge the sins in my life, of which being in a long-term, monogamous, gay relationship isn't one of them.
After much discussion, reflection, and deep scrutiny, I no longer see my formerly beloved church as a home of unconditional love, but rather an exclusive club for boys who think they have a closer connection to God than the rest of us, and therefore believe they have the authority to tell the masses how to live. So to make my relationship with God front and center, I've omitted my church's involvement in it, and I frankly feel very liberated! I hold no grudges or ill will towards any of my Catholic friends or family who still choose to abide by what the church teaches. But my perspective of it all has changed...possibly permanently...unless the glacier-slow-to-change church can admit and ask forgiveness for its trespasses. But for the many who see the church as an infallible institution guided by the Holy Spirit, I think they need to reflect on whom they follow: a bunch of guys managing a building known as the headquarters of a global church, or the deity that church serves? Because according to Scripture, if you find THAT inerrant, you can't serve two masters.
My biggest complaints with the church is that it focuses so much two things:
-abortion/contraception
-marriage equality
Abortion/Contraception
Like in most social debates, there are two sides; for this, you're either pro-life ("Lifers"), or pro-choice ("Choicers"). Lifers believe abortion should be outlawed, and that life begins at conception, an idea the the Catholic church affirms. Choicers - and let me make this CLEAR - Choicers do NOT advocate abortion. Choicers advocate CHOICE to carry a pregnancy to term, or to terminate the pregnancy. Lifers say "You have a life in there, and it has a right to LIVE!" Choicers say, "It's my life, my body, and I'll make my own decisions with the help of my doctor!" Lifers believe they're speaking for those without a voice (i.e., the unborn baby). Choicers believe in people's privacy in making delicate, sensitive, personal decisions.
My opinion is that reproductive choice opinions should only be had by the ones it affects: women. And who runs the Catholic church? Men...men who'll never have to be in that position. These men will never, in their positions of power, have to deal with the social stigma that an unwanted pregnancy brings. Now, if you want to prevent unwanted pregnancies, there are two ways to do that:
-abstain or only have sex with the intention to procreate (as the church instructs)
-use contraception
If you're going to have sex for pleasure, the church only approves of that if you're married and use natural family planning, thereby completely avoiding the use of any artificial contraceptives. And if you get pregnant anyway, well at least you're married. Now you have to have this baby because clearly it was God's plan.
This brings me back to this fact: the church invades privacy by telling women how to live their lives, going so far as being in the bedroom with their rules about something none of them will ever do. I just think that when it comes to issues of such a private, personal matter, no one should have any say in how you live your life. Everyone (i.e., believers) will come to judgment on their day. When a woman makes a choice to keep or terminate a pregnancy, that's between her, her doctor, and her deity of choice.
With contraception, that's against church teachings because those are artificial solutions as a method of pregnancy prevention. This goes back to the church teaching that all sexual activity must be open to procreation. So, again, the church is micromanaging your sex life. The church can preach and teach about sexual ethics all it wants (though it doesn't have room to talk, really). In reality, this one institution cannot keep every woman or every man from only having sex under such structured circumstances. Further, contraceptives like "the morning after pill" are in the church's cross hairs. But they also discourage the use of condoms for men, as that prevents semen from fertilizing any egg that the woman may have ovulated. But if all this anti-contraception warfare is happening, why are church leaders not advocating that men get vasectomies? I get the feeling it's because since men run the church, they can easily vilify women.
Marriage Equality
The church supports and advocates for the "traditional marriage" which is one man, one woman, and at least one child. When Catholics take their marriage vows, one of them is to "accept children willingly from God", to which the couple is expected to reply, "We do." Among the church's arguments, marriage is strictly for procreation that is supported by a life-long commitment to a spouse. And the church most often refers to a verse in the Bible that reads "and for this reason, a man shall leave his mother and father, be joined to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh."
Side note: I may not be able to tell exactly where certain verses are, but I can make plenty of accurate plot references.
Now, Jesus, in all four gospels, never says a thing about gay people. The only places any reference to homosexuality is mentioned in in Leviticus in the Old Testament, and a few letters written by St. Paul in the New Testament. Many who've supported traditional marriage typically cite Leviticus 18:22 about how "Man shall not lie with a man as with a woman; it is an abomination".
Another side note: I know THAT verse because I've been attacked with it repeatedly.
My thing is this: You want to make a biblical point? Fine. Did you realize that Leviticus also condemns wearing mixed fabrics, eating pork or handling pig skin, working on Sundays, or eating shell fish? Did you know that in Deuteronomy (I forgot where), if a woman isn't a virgin upon marriage, she must be stoned to death?
Moving on, what about straight couples who get married, but don't have kids? Should their marriage be annulled? What about all the straight couples who are NOT good parents, or the woman who carried her pregnancy to term, but chose to gave the baby up for adoption? So, since the church opposes marriage equality partly because of the procreative aspect, would it be so bad if an abandoned child grew up with two loving parents who happen to be the same sex?
What about women who want to be mothers, but don't want to be married?
Another common argument is that if kids have gay parents, they'll likely turn out gay because that's the example of a relationship they see before them. Well, I'm the product of a straight marriage, and *I* turned out gay. Every person in existence was, is, or will be brought into this world because of a sperm that fertilized an egg: most likely through male-female sexual intercourse. Some of the offspring of these unions turned out straight, some bisexual, some lesbian, some gay, some transgender, but mostly straight. So if straight couples are the ones having kids that turn out gay, how on earth will two gay parents turn their non-biological children gay as well? Maybe straight couples should be the one to stop having kids. With all their procreating, one of them is bound to turn out gay because it's IN them. Sexual orientation is a gift from God. I believe some gifts He gives us are for serving Him through helping others, and other gifts He gives us are to humble us.
Further, if being gay was a choice, the gay rights movement wouldn't have a leg on which to stand. We chose to be gay the same day you, dear presumably straight reader, chose to be straight. I sure as hell didn't choose to be gay, not that it's bad, but because it's extremely inconvenient. Thankfully, with more minds and hearts changing in favor of recognizing that gay people are only different by how they love, marriage equality is advancing around the country. Even in conservatives states like mine, Texas, the popular opinion is shifting to a more socially progressive one. Back in 2005, Texas passed an amendment to its constitution outlawing marriage equality. Eight years later, minds have changed simply because who someone loves is nobody's fucking business. As a result, some law makers are working to repeal the discriminatory amendment. And now, in the next few months, even the U.S. Supreme Court will possibly give a ruling on marriage equality!
HEALTH
I love animals, and for a number of months in 2012 I started eating less and less meat, which is a bit of a feat from someone who grew up in a Texas-Mexico border town! I gradually weaned myself off in baby steps, starting with simple choices at the grocery store; instead of buying hamburgers, nuggets, or cold cuts, I started replacing them with their vegetarian equivalents. The scale was finally tipped when I saw a documentary called VEGUCATED, about 3 carnivores going vegan (completely plant-based diet). This documentary also included slaughter house footage, and I could no longer justify loving the cow, chicken, or pig, and eating the burger, nugget, or bacon strip. So I'm now a complete vegetarian.
While there are many reasons one might be vegetarian (health, environment, animal ethics), my main reason is my love for animals. But studies have indeed shown that vegetarians have a reduced risk of heart disease, among other fatal ailments. Having seen the documentary also changed my perspective in the grocery store. When I walk by the deli section, I no longer see the main dish at a party, or get recipe ideas. Instead, I simply see dead animals who very well may likely have been treated inhumanely before being dismembered, processed, placed in those packages, and slapped with a bar code waiting to be scanned at checkout.
I'm naturally an empathetic person, and so being a vegetarian has enabled me to live a kind life by enjoying a kind diet. By the way, being a vegetarian makes Fridays during Lent so easy!
GAY ADVOCACY
I love discussions about gay rights. I work in the elementary education field, so when I get the "Are you married?" question, I respond with "That's none of your business." But because I'm not going to just go up to someone and ram my views down their throat, and because I'm a musician who loves to sing, I've joined the Capital City Men's Chorus...yes...a choir of gay men. The mission of the chorus is to uplift and promote a positive image of the gay community in the city through the performance of beautiful music. So when our straight fellow music lovers come to our concerts and hear the beautiful music we make together, discriminating against us gets ideally harder to do...thereby helping our fellow LGBT brothers and sisters finally get the equality to which we're entitled.
We've had a few concerts, and this season (2012-13) is the choir's 24th season. We've had 3 performances this year, and have at least 2 more to go. And I'm having a BLAST!
Well, now that I feel I'm more caught up after almost 6 months since my last post, I'll bid thee farewell.
Thanks for reading!
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